i left indiana on sunday. now, it’s wednesday evening and i am in bristow oklahoma, between tulsa and okc.
it was hard time getting myself to leave evansville sunday and i drove later in the night than i initially had desired. i arrived in berryman park, in the mark twain national forest in missouri, sunday evening with little trouble. i told myself when i got honey to never night drive but i did it anyway. and it was really hard, i missed a turn, backed into a tree stump and bent the bumper some, and it was totally anxiety ridden. though it proved panicking never helps, even though i wasn’t ‘freaking out’, there was that heart racing happening in the middle of my chest… calming down and then dealing with a situation is what’s needed. life lesson exemplified.
when i arrived in the park, i didn’t even try to find a camp site and just parked in the parking lot. in the morning i found a nice site, though it was shaded by trees so i lost power at one point the next night. monday, moon and i hiked several miles. i chose this campground because it is free and has access to a 24 mile trail. we arrived back to the camp before sundown. i made a drawing, wrote a letter, made a silly video, read a comic, lost power, read by lantern. there was a thunderstorm in the early early morning. i was the only person there except for a few day visitors. it is eerie to be somewhere without people and no phone service.
i left late in the morning on tuesday and took my time driving and made it just west of springfield missouri. unsure of where i was and wanting to be around people some, i stayed at a koa campground. it was a little expensive. this is the second koa i have stayed at, and i can tell that they must all different. the first one was just sweet, this one was more business but i liked both for different reasons. both were surprised when i said i had an rv but i didn’t need hookups, not wanting to pay for an amenity i wasn’t going to use. when i was paying for my lot, the lady told me they had pizza and you could order by phone and they would deliver it your campsite! i splurged and had pizza and beer that night.
today i drove south west of tulsa and i am staying in a walmart parking lot. i stopped long the way to some road side attractions. i drove route 66 when i could and braved the highway when i couldn’t. honey goes a cool 55, maybe 60. i could have stayed in tulsa or okc and stayed with friends of friends but wanted a break from people.
if i look from the right angle in the honey, it seems like i am living in some studio apartment in a big city. noise from the parking lot and near distant highway, my shades drawn with lights from the walmart shining through. and a few days before i was living quietly, miles away from another person, in the woods. all from within the honey, i am experiencing the most powerful game of make-believe i could imagine as a child.
i will continue to travel west and have plans stopping for several days in santa fe and then in taos before heading to arizona. from here to new mexico will consist of road side attractions and walmart parking lots.
i will leave today with this text message from my dad: