it's wonderful how things fall into place.
the coming winter has been sitting heavy in my mind - not knowing where i am going to live and afraid of a cold mesa rv winter, but a plan has arose and i am relieved. justin comes home in a month or so, and nearly immediately following his return i will be moving into my friend allan's house to housesit for him during the winter, while he is on tour with his band 'all them witches'. along with letting me live rent free (but not without responsibility), allan is also going to let me drive his truck while he is gone. this gives me time to save money and find the perfect truck, rather than buying the first thing i can afford.
this past month or so, rather this summer, has been a wild change from my life in the honey and my life in arizona and my life on the mesa this past winter and spring. working in restaurants again has given me a platform for both (some) monitory security and a space to make friends and be apart of a community. i am starting to feel apart of something again, which is good for my mental health. i have discovered i need a strange combination of solitude and community.
not only are my new friends kind, but they are creative and radical thinkers. before a few of my friends made their way back east (hopefully for only a lil while) we had an epic party. here are some photos i took of our time together that day:
i also had an art opening last month! my beautiful friend, jesse, has an awesome shop stone fruit and my paintings have adorned her place for the last month. we had a surprising lil party that was a lot of fun! talking about art, making friends, sharing parts of myself, drinking on the street. here we are at the beginning of the night:
i bought some tattoo supplies and felt like i needed to poke myself for a while in an attempt to heal. it worked. these are forget me nots below another tattoo i did about a year ago, forgiving and (not) forgetting:
while art making has been on the back burner, it is still in my constant thoughts. working jobs and creating community is important too. i am trying to save money like crazy so i can build a place that really allows for making art. i have been looking at land, researching what is the best structure to build. this is a plan i have right now of the space, simple but a start:
i am not sure i could live here forever full time, however, the mesa has proved to be the best creative space for me and it is an attainable goal to buy land and build here. the other night i watched two different skies within the same sky, on one side there was a gnarly thunderstorm and next to it was the pink sky of a sunset, neither disturbing one another. how amazing is that? if you know anything about my work, that example of duality is powerful for me. it is going to take some time and work to build this, but i feel committed and also supported.
i guess we will see how this whole thing will unfold. until then, it's a mixture of jobs, friends, research, and painting. as always, i will try to keep updating. been listening to a lot of the wingnut dishwashers union/pat the bunny. i love how songs can reignite ideas. i suggest listening to some. jesus does the dishes has been my fave this week:
listening to these songs reminded why i moved into the honey, why living rent-free is important to me. it has inspired me to remember why activism and radical thinking is important and how my art making practice is apart of that. it is calling me to have discourse and take action. i am thinking about joining the volunteer fire fighters here, i think i would want to do EMT work with them. "the anarchists have started filling potholes and collecting garbage to prove we don't need government to do these things"
it is looking good here. an upswing always comes around.